Wednesday, February 9, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Nineteen

Hmmm, this one is sort of vague.
Does it mean a picture and a letter, as in, "Today's blog is brought to you by the Letter J"
Or does it mean, a picture of a letter?

Well, here is my interpretation:
This is a picture of me and my Daddy from when he was here at Thanksgiving time. I love him for everything he is and what he means to me!! He is not someone I would want to piss off and yet he is someone who would let me cry on his shoulder! He is all man, with that respectable sensitive side. Maybe it's because the poor guy had a house full of girls for some so many years, but none the less, I like it!! I like who he is today and who he was to me as a child growing up.
I won't write too much here about my past but lets just say that I have not always made the best of choices. Growing up, I was sort of a brat and thought my parents were fun suckers!! They wouldn't let me date who I wanted, I always had to go to church, I couldn't listen to the music I wanted, blah, blah blah!! (See, they were really awesome parents who loved me so much!!) I know now how much they cared about me!!
One day, I made some really bad choices that ended me in a place that is not pleasant to talk about. In the end, it made me stronger and of course my parents were there to walk me through that valley every step of the way BUT I have always felt that my Dad blamed himself for my behavior. They say a lot of a girls behavior is dependent on her relationship with her Dad. I think other people made my Dad feel like he had dropped the ball somewhere and that if he had been there more or done more I would have made different choices. I have always disagreed with that, I was 16 at the time and was making my own decisions (be it bad ones, but they were mine). I never felt unloved by my Dad and I never felt like anything was more important to him other than family. I have always wanted to write him a letter and tell him that but I just haven't taken the time to sit down and do it. Well, today is the day!! I am going to take that pen and paper and write my Daddy a letter. So here we go....
A picture of my Daddy and a letter!