Monday, January 31, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Fourteen


Thursday, January 27, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Thirteen

Okay, this one is REALLY hard! Who only likes one band or artist?! And music, I LOVE MUSIC!! I listen to it when I am in the car, when I am cooking, when I workout, when I need a pick me up, when I want to feel depressed, when I want to hear God speak!
Music is whatever you need it to be when you need it! I have a lot of favorites, and sometimes my favorites change depending on what kind of music I want to listen too or the mood I am in. Like, right now, I am loving some Aerosmith because of Steven Tyler on American Idol so it depends.
Hmmm, how to approach this one. I could make a collage of pictures if I knew how to do that...only my cool teenager knows how to do that are a few of my favorites! :-)

So, it is a little embarrassing but I will admit, to you my faithful blog readers, that I do love Britney Spears. Her songs always put me in a good mood, the beat in her songs makes you want to dance like no one is watching!! It's great to turn up on a warm day in the car with the windows down! Britney has a lot of critics and I get it, not sure I like her as a person either but for her music and the way it makes me feel . I do love some Britney Spears!! :-)

Nickelback! I have loved them since they came out years ago. I bought tickets to their concert once too but ended up not being able to go! :-( I will get to oneof their concerts someday! Once again, this is music I love to turn up loud and just rock out!! This is not music I listen to with kids around but for me and Jason, I enjoy it!! I really like rock music and I love Chad Krogers voice!!

Who doesn't love Rob Thomas?! I love his voice too! From before when he was part of Matchbox Twenty to where he is today out on his own. He is more mellow but can still rock a beat!! He also has some deeper lyrics like his song, "Diamonds" I just love it!! Have liked him for years and will continue to like him for years to come!!

This is a picture of the current Newsboys band. I have never really like the Newsboys, they are too mellow for me sometimes. The reason I have their picture here is because I LOVE their new lead singer Michael Tait!! Ever since DC Talk to when he was his own band Tait! This guy can sing and I love listening to him!! The new Newsboys album is pretty good too!! Love Michael Tait!!

Aerosmith, they are just legendary! The first time I really remember listening to Aerosmith was probably in Jr. High. Powerful lyrics in some of his songs, "Janie's Got a Gun" oh and I love the song "Angel", so many...too many to write! I am enjoying him on American Idol as a judge. He really seems to care and doesn't really want to hurt these peoples feelings. It's a new side to Steven Tyler that I like!! I'm sure Aerosmith will be around for years to come and I'm sure I'll still be listening! :-)

Coldplay is another one of my more Mellow likes. Again, I have listened to them for years and love them! They relax me more, not as much rocking beat but I like that sometimes and Coldplay will always be a favorite

This woman....if you don't know Regina Spektor you are missing out! Not only can she sing, she can play the piano too and all so well!!
Her songs are more mellow, less pop style, more unique and I think that is why I love her so much!!
Her songs are poetic, they make you think!!

So if that doesn't run the gamete of types, styles and sounds of music I don't know what does!! About the only thing I don't listen to is rap and country. Ewww! Just can't get into either of those.
I listen to a lot of Christian music in the car with the kids but I likes songs, not necessarily artists....and there are so many! If you want to listen to Christian Music I suggest finding an Air1 station in your area. I love the music they play because it is more Christian Rock and I enjoy that the harder rock sounds and upbeat tempos...of course I do! :-)

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Twelve

I know I just posted our Family Christmas card a few weeks ago but when thinking of what I love, this is it, my family! And what better way to show all of them than with this collage. It's like little bits and pieces of my life and the people I love. This is what makes life worth living, after God! They are my greatest source of joy and frustration, happiness and sadness, strengths and weakness's, together though we are a family and I would be lost without them. I saw a sign at the store the other day and I think it sums it all up nicely.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Eleven

Oh yes, I went there! I may live in the South and love my GA state but when it comes to sports, I will always be a Chicago sports fan. With that love comes an easy hate for Greenbay Packers, and Minnisota Vikings!! Grrr! We hate them both!! I just chose the Packers for this post because they beat my Bears this past Sunday in the Superbowl Playoffs. If that is not a reason to hate, I don't know what is!! I will say that I am rooting for the Steelers this Superbowl game just so I can see the Packers lose!! Ha! :-p

In a more serious approach to this post of something I hate, it would be this:

I am not so afraid of them that I am unable to drive over one or ride in the car going over one. But I will admit that when traveling over a bridge, I will close my eyes when the traveler OR speed like the dickens when the driver!! I also keep a close eye on cars coming from the opposite direction so that I know the bridge has not collapsed up ahead of me!! I know it is crazy but I just can't help it. I don't know where this fear came from but one idea springs to mind. When I was a little girl there was a teacher who's husband at my Elementary school was killed in an accident. The teachers husband had gotten out of his car to help someone on the side of the road (ON A BRIDGE) Someone hit the car which hit him and threw him off the bridge and to his death!! It was terrible and I remember that story so well. Weird, because it really has nothing to do with driving on a bridge (this guy was walking and got hit) but none the less, I think that is when I started fearing bridges.
The worst part is, I live in the south and every beach is on an island and to get to an island you have to go over a bridge....oh well, I have made it 34 years going over them and I'm sure I'll make it 34+ more but I still don't have to like it!! :-)

Monday, January 24, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Ten

Hmmmm, feeling a bit too old for this post today. I don't do stupid stuff like that anymore. I guess I should put a picture of Jason since he is the one I was with when I jumped on the hotel bed! :-) Or maybe I should put a picture of my kids because they get me to do stupid stuff like play Just Dance and then laugh at me! Or maybe I should just put a picture of me because I know that if I do something stupid, I will be there! :-) So.....I guess there is no picture today. Just my words to say, I love where I am in life and am glad I don't really have a picture to put here! :-)

Saturday, January 22, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Nine

This is my hubby! I LOVE MY HUBBY SO MUCH!! We have been married for 16 years and together since 1993!! WOW!! I definitely have my moments where I need some help. Whether it is physically, mentally or spiritually and no matter if he is near or far, I can always count on him to be rational, loving, and always there for me!! I LOVE YOU JASON!! You are my rock!!

Friday, January 21, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Eight

This is me after my Jason took me out for my 34th Birthday. It was the first time He and I had gotten away by ourselves for a night and I was SO EXCITED!! This is the life of a Mom when her kids aren't around. Because, all parents know that when the kids are with you in a hotel room you have to tell them, "don't jump on the beds", "don't walk like an Elephant (people are trying to sleep underneath us)", "don't make too much noise", "shhhh, shhhh, shhhh!" Maybe that is just life with 4 kids but none the less, you try to make sure your kids behave like angles while staying in a hotel.
So, being silly and kid free I jumped up on the bed and told Jason, "don't tell the kids, Mommy is jumping on the bed!" Ha-ha! This picture makes me laugh! I had so much fun that night with my Jason, and guess what, the kids were just fine without us for a night! It is nice to get away every once in a while!!

Thursday, January 20, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Seven

This my my porch swing! I LOVE my porch swing. When people say, "Go to you happy place! Go to your happy place!" This swing IS my happy place! I love sitting on my porch in the afternoon when the sun is setting and casting it's warm glow right there! I love falling asleep and taking a cat nap on this swing! :-) I love seeing hummingbirds come to my feeder. I love watching the rain while staying dry. I love drinking a glass of wine and just sitting outside. I LOVE THIS SWING!! This is one of my most treasured items!!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Six

This is a picture of my oldest daughter Stephanie. She is one of the best teenagers I know, nothing like what you hear or see on TV. Of course she has her moments, but all in all she is the best!! :-) She attends public High School and has a great group of friends. I would love to trade places with her for a day because I never went to public High School. I grew up in Private school my whole life. My whole High School was about 300 people, her class is 482. I mean WOW!! I would like to experience a day through her eyes one day...not to be a creeper Mom but just for the experience! :-)

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day Five

Growing up every Friday night was Pizza night. Mom and Dad would order pizza from one of Chicago's finest pizzarias! Always Half sausage, half sausage, mushroom and green pepper. I always I ate from the sausage veggies for me as a kid! :-) Then we would get to have a glass bottle of Pepsi (pop was only aloud on pizza night too) to drink with our pizza. Mom would get this super ugly orange and yellow sheet. We would spread it onto the living room and congregate to watch the latest episode of The Dukes Of Hazzard!! It was our regular Friday night routine and I loved it!
Now that I have kids of my own every Friday night is again pizza night. We don't have a show to watch so instead we rent a movie and eat pizza!! I let my kids drink pop on Friday nights too!! It is such a great memory for me as a child and now as a Mom I enjoy making new memories!! I love Friday night pizza night!!

Friday, January 14, 2011

30 day picture challenge


This is one of my most recent favorite nights! This was Christmas Eve 2010. My friend Kim and her fiance' Carson came over with her 3 kids and hung out with us to celebrate. We had dinner together, played games together and let the kids just do the same. It was so much fun and time well spent! At my age, I have a lot of favorite nights but this is just one of them! I do Love my life and know I am blessed with a great husband, good kids, and great friends!!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

30 day picture challenge


Two And A Half Men, it has been my favorite show for years now. There is something about Charlie Harper and Alan that makes me laugh over and over again. It's the one show I DVR every single week and wait to watch it until I can watch it with Jason. It is the one show we both really like and laugh at. I have watched episodes laughing so hard my cheeks hurt. I have bought all the seasons on DVD and when nothing else is on TV and we don't have a movie to watch, Jason and I pop one of these in. I'm telling you I love this show! :-)
I will also admit that it wasn't until reading something in a magazine that I made the connection between Jon Cryer and Ducky from Pretty In Pink!! So, I'm a little slow on these things! I LOVE IT!!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

30 day picture challenge


This is a picture of me and my older sister Kim. Outside of my husband, I would say she is my best friend. I talk to her almost every day on the phone and if we don't talk we text. She has been through life with me both the good and bad. She knows my ugly side and still loves me!! I have known her and been close to her longer than my husband so that is why her picture is here. :-)
Sisters are special people and I love both of mine!! (Yes, I have a younger sister but since she is younger, I have known my older sister longest!) I do love you Liz!! :-)
I am blessed to have sisters and cherish those relationships.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

30 day picture challenge

I found a post on Facbook where someone is doing a picture challenge where you upload a picture each day to correspond with what it asks for. Sounded sort of fun and it gives me something to blog about and a chance for you to get to know me better. So here goes, 30 day picture challenge, for your viewing pleasure! :-)


1) The spelling of my name is from the Bible
2) I am a middle child
3) I married my High School sweetheart
4) I am left handed
5) I drink Starbucks coffee every morning
6) I like my coffee black
7) I love wine
8) My favorite color is Purple
9) I used to hate seafood and now LOVE IT
10) I hate/fear driving over long bridges

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Nobody really understands...

Think about when you were first dating your husband, what was it like?
You spent every waking moment with that person?
If you went to High School together you were together during the day, together during lunch, together on the weekends! EVERY moment was together! No time for not being together, right?! You loved this person and knew you wanted to be together!! Okay, this all make sense! I was right there with you!! I couldn't get enough of Jason, couldn't wait until I was his wife, until we lived at husband and wife and as one!!
Fast forward 15 years! I still love my husband Soooo much that it hurts!! I still long to spend every waking moment I have with him and yet here I am at home while he is 900mi away!! It just doesn't see right!
I try to stay strong, take care of my kids and live my life as best as I can but deep down...way deep down, the things I don't tell people would shake them to the core!!
I don't know how I do it, I don't know how I live life day to day except to say that I have to. I have anxiety, I have depression, but I don't tell people about that because everyone thinks Bekah is strong. Everyone tells Bekah how great she is and how much they admire her. No one wants to hear how much she aches just to be in bed in at night with her husband.
It's not all sexual it is about emotional connection!! No one understands how much I yearn to just be in arms night after night, to hear his voice, to be with him....and I feel I have no one to talk or to understand.
I have family that have problems of their own and don't want them to think I am unhappy?
I have friends that live with their boyfriend and aren't even married so how do they understand?
I have a spouse who is doing the best he can to support us so how can I complain to him?
I have friends that don't even like their husband and think I am lucky to be apart from mine!!
I have friends that put a medal around my neck and think I am so awesome to do without my husband and survive day after day....but I am barely surviving!!
I am surviving but friends it is SO FREAKING HARD!!
Pray for me!! Pray Jason gets a job close to to home and pray I can keep on keeping on!! It is not as easy I make it look but I fear no one wants to know how hard it really is!! I miss my husband with such deep hurting that it makes my own heart hurt even more!!
Don't take you spouse for granted!! Revel in every moment and minute you have together because I know...I take nothing for granted and LOVE every moment I have with my husband!!
I am blessed but desire so much more to be with him every moment than I can!!
God is good and I believe He hears my crys and wants us together as a family but I need more...I am hurting...I need your prayers!! Pray for me, please pray for my family, I need HIS comfort, I need so much more, I need to be shown how to live my life in honor of Him and my husband!! I need so much that even right to say?!!