Sunday, March 20, 2011

Family Beach Day

Say what you want about the south but right now while all my Yankee friends are freezing their booties off, I am spending my time at the beach! :-p And, for the record, even when it is 102 degrees here in GA, I will still be nice and comfy at the beach!!
Where do you go in Chicago when it is hot? No are land locked!! :-) The beach is full of so many family making memories, I LOVE IT!!
God knew right where I belonged, just ask my Grandma Brown...when I was little and she asked me where I wanted to live someday I told her the Carolinas...well GA is pretty dang close!! :-)

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Desire and Respect

Getting ready this morning I decided to put on my "fat jeans", you know the pair you wear when you just feel bloated and fat! I put them on and much to my chagrin, my "fat jeans" really make me look fat! I should be happy that they no longer cling to my hips and hold in my tummy because that means my "fat jeans" are too big but instead I started to dwell on the negative and belittle the person staring back at me in the mirror. It really is a self-destructive path I was on and why? I have lost weight and no long fit into my "fat jeans"...but I just couldn't let go of the way the baggy butt and pooched stomach looked in those jeans and I really didn't want to put on the jeans that I knew made me look good!
I asked myself, "what is your problem?"
The joker inside of me said, "you haven't had sex in over a week, you are feeling undesirable" That is when this blog popped into mind...
See, there is nothing in this world that makes me feel more beautiful than when my husband is desiring me. Desiring to touch me, hold me, and be with me. It doesn't always have to be a Sexual Desire, just knowing his desire is for me does more for my self esteem any pair of jeans could ever do! Just yesterday my husband sent me a text and it said, "I want you to know that you are my priority and I love you very much!" No reason, just wanted to let me know he was thinking of me. Every part of my body went Ahhhhh, when I read that comment. It made me feel desired and important!
At home with 4 kids all the time, the last thing I feel is desirable. Oh, I know those 4 kids need me but sometimes it feels like they need me as more of a doormat. I am not trying to say bad things about my kids here, its just that they are kids. They are selfish (as they should be at this stage in their lives) and I am the one who is to provide for all their needs. So they need me all the time and I guess you could say they desire for me to fill their wants and needs but it just isn't the same. At the end of the day I feel depleted, sucked dry and empty. When my husband desires me, it leaves me feeling loved, full, and content.
So many people struggle with marriage and I know it is not an easy road to travel but one thing I have learned is this. Men and Woman have 2 basic needs when it comes to marriage and a relationship.
1) Woman want to be desired and 2) Men want to be respected. It really is this simple. When I feel my husband focusing on me and desiring me, I am willing to give him just about anything, including all the love and respect he deserves. When he is feeling respect from me, it is easy for him to desire me and want to be with me. It is a circle that is never ending and can be so rewarding in any relationship.
I am NOT a perfect wife but I do try to go out of my way and never say anything bad about my husband to anyone. He is not perfect and I may not always be happy with what he is doing but at the end of the day, I love him, he is mine, I forgive him and I will always love him. No one else will ever love him the way I do and no one will think anything of him unless I tell them how great he is (which he is, of course!) :-) I get very annoyed when woman talk bad about their husband in front of other people, annoyed and sad!
I don't know where this train of thought is going or what I want to say but if I could just say one thing to any husband out there....DESIRE your wife!! Make her feel beautiful and in return I bet you will be rewarded in ways you never imagined!! And wives, respect your husband, whether talking with your friends or talking with him at home!!
I think I'm going to go take off my "fat jeans" and put on the jeans that I know make me look good because I know that even if J can't see me today, he would find me desirable!! :-)

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

I have nothing to write about

So now that my 30 day picture challenge is done and over with I have nothing to write about. I'm sure there is a lot I could say but none of it is very interesting.
We have had a bought of sickness/allergies going through our house so I guess that has kept things pretty low key around here.
Stephie made a list of 101 things about herself so I have started making a list for myself. It really is sort of fun to do and a lot easier than I thought it was going to be. I will probably post my list here once I get it done but then I will probably be stuck with nothing to write about again.
Actually, we hope to get to the beach this weekend and that is always fun to write about when all my friends and family are back in Chicago freezing their butts off! Ha! Will have to write about that! :-)
Today the kids have a half day of school and between you and me, I HATE half days of school. I would rather they just went a full day instead of this half day stuff. We still have to get up early, put on school clothes and then by the time I can get myself together it's time to go pick them up...of course I might have more time to get more done if I didn't get sucked into my computer with facebook and blogging...
Guess I better get moving and get something done before it's 11:30. Hope you are all having a GREAT week!!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day 30

This is my Great Grandma Ollis
She passed away while I was pregnant with Alexis
I cherish pictures of her with my kids, even if they don't remember her it makes my heart happy to know that she knew them!
I don't know what it was, but me and my Grandma Ollis always shared a special bond and even 9 years later, I still miss her!!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day 29

...Or sometimes it makes me cry, depends how much I am missing him!
He IS my heart! Love you Jason! Mwah!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

30 day picture challenge

Day 28

SPIDERS AND SNAKES, OH MY!! (I almost couldn't post this picture or Google it) YIKES!